The Literary Review
Bruises
These were unexpected.
Bruises – yes – I was surprised
to see the blue-yellow hurt
like a badge on the shoulders.
Bruises, bruises here from the body on the body,
but not in violence, only intimacy too intense
for the heat of its own speed.
Perhaps this is the way steam burns,
a slowly unnoticed meeting
& then the skin all ablaze.
Surely it is silent fire & hurricanes our eyes are
when we meet as runes before the wake of parting.
Empathy, chemistry—–
through the spirit & through the flesh
as if they are the stigmata of living wounded
to heal one another, as if touch itself
could all be slide-placed, microscopic
like stains breathing viral.
Volcanoes erupt from the colors
& they also are bruise-true
while I want & wait.
- Stephen Mead
Singing Beyond Penance
The vocal chords tighten, but with flexibility
for those notes lowering, then growing higher,
opening the throat which choked on so much to say
at last in this way finding the means to breathe.
How what pressed against the diaphragm breaks
so the squeezed lungs, released from such a cage,
are instruments bellows-wide with a clarity
for what was lodged down being like
the heart’s mind caught on a hamster wheel
turning by burning with a rapidly cycling face,
laugh, words, gestures, frame – the most painful scenery
in that entangling emotional wilderness
shared with no other soul while the one
whose an obsession, accidental, remains scot-free,
never thinking of the other, let alone having
an inkling of feeling.
This music here releases all of that as a funnel upright –
tornado of torpor passionate, but also controlled frenzy,
an aria spirit-freeing the choice between rivers, mythic,
of Lethe & Mnemosyne.
Will these syllables sung lose themselves to waves
which bring forgetting, a balm of fog to later fall
in such anguish again, dumb to the first time
blank as a lamb some sky of steel takes?
No, moan blues, clarify, remembering to articulate everything
in currents of western turbulence to rise from shining,
bathed to love wisely, ears on a harmonious tune
composed so far deep from within
that to sing of it is quenching as peaceful Paradise attained.
- Stephen Mead
Pass, Pass, Pass
Wild Violet, a midnight dig, alchemy in it,
the spade hitting earth, a showering of silt
from the verdant lit by flashlight
where neighbor’s butter-pat windows will not see
this wilderness witchery or my nails of clay
through the fertile purple & pungent paper bag.
Pass, pass, pass—–
how it all falls away with vulnerable will under this cold Spring half-moon
every loneliness must escape the close physicality of.
Oh, all you happy-sad drunkards, all you bar, you phone presences,
you lit Karaoke voices, you whispers of velvet, you cloth textures,
you loves long past not to be the hostage of, nor the carved tree
initials for, or the inscriptions in water, the spirits rippling sheer
where soul met soul or sidestepped to salvage a drowning life
in the charms & price of talking alcohol…
So these woods find me, little Wolfsbane Eden
in our metropolitan harbor, our suburb polite
past the yowling hungers, the silent echolocation
where no, not any longer, will I crawl about.
The games are old but nothing to the rites Ancients protect
by this solo garden shoring ghosts for prayers & the wiser difference
leaving all the loves which could not be saved by any faith of mine.
- Stephen Mead
Night Crossing
No vehicle for this
though picture still a ship’s rocking berth,
depths of darkness, waves cresting with the whiteness
of clouds in moonlight nudged by the nose of a jet.
Imagine being in that too, rising from sails unfurled
to find engines rumbling, a compressed hum
with wings on either side, each a Dorsal
for that metal-encased sky whale.
Yes, better to grasp for something as peaceful,
even being hidden in a lorry or jeep
under blankets, crates of fruit,
napping in a pretend game
without apprehension of check points,
chase scenes, the seizing of papers,
bullets and a kneeling before their cold send off
from behind.
That’s how vulnerable this is truly,
openness, an outing, the walking skin itself
vigilant for going on is the only thing to do.
Migrant, ease fear by remembering gardening
and each backstreet, covert field here
just more acreage to complete tasks in:
weeding, say, between brief rains,
an invigorating breeze changing direction,
this course, that, of wet curtains sweeping,
each silvery bead in descent cooling air
while soil steams.
Some pressure is being let out,
something broth-rich fragrant
as vegetables in a pot,
while above there’s an uncovering of blue swathes
clearing the head in buttery sun when sweating
effort takes a break from yanking tough tufts
to let edible stalks, leaves, berries,
shells, pods, kernels, casings
breathe, breathe, breathe…
Migrant be there, moment to moment, step
after step, Belief tilling life from the toiling
with the faith of a mustard seed
that harvest will come one fine safe day.
- Stephen Mead
Kick
Kick in.
Kick in the—
(fill in those blanks…)
Hey, does the kangaroo of you really know your own lengths?
Yes, feeling the pouch, that cocoon where you often beat
unknowingly hurt but also swim in comfort,
tapping melodies & rhythms with nurturance
& further birth in the end to the still ultimate umbilical link—–
Yes, why should it be any different now
no matter what’s kicking at you tonight or today?
Why should it be when you are still kicking back – aren’t you –
even if in withdrawal tantrums?
Isn’t that also flight? The vines of Thrush?
The pebble driveway sparrows & their grand pecking
some resonance close to the sound of rain?
Oh you, ever-kicker, even when kicked,
& ticking with soccer chorus-line-Rockettes,
you know death too might just be one more blow,
one more door to take, so while you are going,
breathless but a breathing being,
kick low, kick high, each an effervescence.
- Stephen Mead
Living
This hem of
silence keeps in
hymns, doggerel, the rustling
of a world: that self-contained vase.
Up against it, seconds conspire,
resurrect, our time
an interpolation, that
racket of white sound.
Conversion is work, these attempts to grasp views,
voices caught in a beehive sea Gulliver shakes
like a radio gone awry.
Next he tries putting an eye
to the scope curving fingers form.
Darkness, then light squeaking,
the panorama of cracks with, occasionally,
some crystallization as if of a dream which
in a moment
becomes
- Stephen Mead